Tuesday, November 29, 2011

The Monster Inside Me





“Hi my name is Hale, every time I wake up my hands were always full of blood, I can’t remember what are the things that I’ve done why you gave this to me, I know for somehow I’ve become bad but you know that I’ve tried my best to change it, you gave me something that is so hard to accept you let the monster to get inside of my body. And you know that I can’t control that monster. I want to get and killed him! But how will I do that if he’s always with me. I don’t know what will I do, please help me, I want to get this monster inside me”     







He’s name was Hale. He is a 25 year old man who loves to play video games. Every single day of his life, he wants to spend in just playing and playing. One day when he was at the video game shop, he saw a very beautiful lady, she was wearing red shirt with white shorts , of course, she have also a fair white skin, her hair were black and her lips were so kissable and her body, she was so hot.
            After Hale saw that beautiful woman he tried his best to get the number of that woman and to have a date with her. it was almost a month that Hale was courting that girl but when the day comes when that girl was actually answered him, Hale got disappointed, because when he saw the girl, she’s with other guy. Hale was so depressed because he was not expected that girl was nothing but a girl with no heart. Then Hale spent his time playing with video game.
            After a month, Hale got a bad news from his brother. He found out that their parents were crashed in a car accident. Hale was shocked about the news and he directly went to his brother’s house, to check if it is true. But when he arrived there, he found out that his brother was right. Hale’s parents were dead. Then after that, Hale decided to throw away his video games and concentrated to the business that his parents left to him.
            Since Hale have no any background about the business, it is not surprising if Hale can’t handle the business right. That’s why after 3 months, the business was bankrupt, the only thing that his parents left to him was already gone.
            Hale did not cope with the situation, he always get drunk and find for any trouble that makes his life more miserable. He did not want to go to his home because until now, he still feels the presents of his parents. Hale get worse everyday. All the people were already hate him and always box him. The only place that Hale gets relieved was in the river.  
            One day when he was getting drunk again, he find another trouble and accidentally, he hit one of the kids playing outside the bar. There are blood scattered in his face and his hands. Hale was panic and run to the river. After a while, Hale got asleep and when he wakes up one morning, he was surprised of what he saw. There was a woman sitting beside him. The woman was actually beautiful but one thing that Hale observed, that woman was looking at one direction only. Because of Hale’s curiosity he ask the woman then the woman admit that she was a blind person.
            Hale ask the girl why she was with him then the girl said “I never been feel and see beautiful place like this”, Hale was laughing. Then the girl asks him “why? Is there something wrong with my statement? Do i have no right to use the term see it’s because of my situation?” Hale stop laughing and become serious. Then after a while the woman ask him, “how about you Mr why you are here and what is your name?” at first, Hale did not answer him but because the woman will not stop on asking then Hale forced to tell him but before he tells everything to that woman, Hale remember his family, and then he cried. The woman was surprised and she ask Hale what happened then Hale tells her “my name is Hale; I’m a very bad guy with a nonsense life story. I love to see troubles and I also love to hurt somebody”, the woman asks him why but Hale did not utter any words again. Then the woman touches his face to wipe away his tears and touches his hands, then the woman said “I know that you are a good person, this hands, it already tired of holding things which it thinks it could be impossible to touch.” Then the woman hugs him.
            Then after a minute of chatting with each other they decided to return to their home but Hale decided to accompanied the woman first, before they reached to the woman’s house, Hale ask the woman’s name then he found out that her name was Miriam. They are comfortable with each other and they find themselves very happy. Their friendship lasted for one year but Hale can’t still get himself in drinking those alcoholic drinks.
            Miriam tried her best but she cannot do anything to stop Hale she’s been trying to understand Hale but this time she’s want to give up. Until such time, she told Hale that she don’t want to see him anymore because she don’t want to have a friend who is always drunk. But Hale begs her and tries to give him another chance. Then Miriam accepts his proposal so long that he will change. Hale really tried his best to get out with that drinks but often times he can’t control himself if he will do that he make sure that Miriam will not know it.
            After a month, Hale and Miriam became lovers they were happy with each other, Hale stops drinking alcoholic drinks. Their relationship lasted for 2 years but everything was change when they found out that Hale got a liver cancer. The doctor gave him one month to live. Each day of their lives they spent it wisely. Hale’s cancer became worse and worse everyday they tried to find solution. But it was all useless. Hale admits to himself that he will be lost one day but for Miriam she can’t admit it.  Hale said to Miriam “before I die, I want you to know that I never been tired of loving you, you change me and you’ll never leave me. I love you. Hope for the very last time, my wish will come true.” Miriam replied with a tears in her eyes “ what is that?”. Hale replied “before I die I want you to marry me” Miriam cried and she say yes. Hale put the ring in her finger everyone in that room was actually crying.
            When the day of their wedding has finally arrived, Hale was the happiest man that day eventhough he was in his wheelchair. When the ceremony starts Miriam also starts to cry although she can’t see the people around her, still she knows that everybody was crying. It only takes a minute when their wedding was finally comes to an end. Then Hale tried his best to stand just to kiss his beautiful bride.
            When they were in their honeymoon, Hale feels so warm and he want to smell the fresh air along  the sea that’s why they went to the seashore. They watch the sunset and they try to reminisce all of their past moment. Hale was just looking at the face of his wife then tears falls from his eyes. Then he told Miriam “I never thought that I will be your husband. I’m sorry, I want to stay with you but we know that it will be impossible. Though someday I will be lost, I promise that I will not stop loving you, hopefully when I’m gone you would find someone else that could replace me and love you more than the love that I’ve shown to you. It is really hard but what will I do if this monster inside me will not go.” Then Miriam told him “yes the monster, the monster that could get you to me, the monster that we can never defeat and the monster that I will always be hated forever.” Then Hale look at the sky and he whisper “Hi my name is Hale, you know what? every time I wake up my hands were always full of blood, I can’t remember what are the things that I’ve done why you gave this to me, I know for somehow I’ve become bad but you know that I’ve tried my best to change it, you gave me something that is so hard to accept you let the monster to get inside of my body. And you know that I can’t control that monster. I want to get and killed him! But how will I do that if he’s always with me. I don’t know what will I do, please help me, I want to get this monster inside me” then Miriam hug him and try to comfort him.
            Then before the sun went down Hale kiss Miriam’s forehead then Hale said “goodnight” and hug his wife. Miriam knows that it will be the last words that he can hear from Hale. Then Miriam told him “get sleep and take a rest don’t worry I will never leave beside you, I love you”.

A POEM FOR MY EX





Every time you look at me
You always showed that smile to me
I tried my best to respond to it
But I don’t know what happen why I can’t do it.

You always call my name when I’m away
Through calls and text or even to your simplest way
You always make me smile every day
And I did not notice I fallen for you every single day

One day I tell my feelings to you
And you told me that you love me too
I was so happy when I heard that word from you
But I ask myself if that is true?

I wonder why you said that word to me
Well, in fact, it was just a part of your cruelty
I admit that I was hurt
But what can I do if I really meant.

Now that we’re about to end
I want to tell you one important thing
I never regret what I’ve done
Because I believe that my experience has just begun.